Passing The California Bar
I passed the California Bar Exam. Ironically, I know far smarter people than me that failed. I am grateful that I passed, yet disturbed that other brilliant students did not. This has humbled me because before I doubted passing because I doubted my intelligence. Now I know that the bar is only a fraction of intelligence, lots of studying the right things, and a whole bunch of luck.
I hated waiting four months for my results, hated the nightmares where my computer screen went blank after typing three different essays on the bar, hated waking up with my heart pounding after thinking of things I had forgotten on the bar, hated waiting all day until six p.m. to check my results online, too scared to eat.
And when my name was on the pass list I was so happy. I cried. Because it seemed that everything I had worked so hard for over the last three years of my life had finally paid off. But mostly, it was knowing that I would never again have to endure the months of endless studying leading up to the three-day six-hour each day bar exam.
Studying for and taking the bar was one of the worse experiences of my life. Exhaustion. Self-doubt. Mental Overload. Stress. Questioning your self-worth. For those who are going to take it again, I admire you. You have taken it upon yourself to endure the whole agonizing process for a second time. You are the ones that should be proud.



