Finally...

Take Over The World Things To Do List
1. Buy small island
2. Build nuclear laboratory
3. Take Focus Formula (check)

THE CALIFORNIA BAR

I had a minor breakdown two weeks ago while I was studying for the bar. I had a bad attitude.
I had a bad headache. I felt like I couldn't get out beneath this dark cloud of horror.

This was because of the Bar.

Because of FEAR. Fear of failing the bar. Fear of being stupid. Fear of what others would think of me. Fear of what I'd think of myself. And then I realized this...

Passing the bar or failing the bar won't change who I am.
Passing the bar or failing the bar won't change the people who love me.
Passing the bar or failing the bar won't change what my real friends think of me.
Even if I were to fail the bar just because I am stupid, that STILL doesn't change the person that I am.
Even if I do fail the bar because I am stupid and I never pass the bar, that sucks, but I can still go on to do great things like becoming the mayor of LA.

I am still apprehensive about the bar. I still WANT to pass the bar. I still study all the time and blare my PMBR CDs in my Kia with my windows rolled down and while in the shower. I still go to the gym on Friday nights with my flashcards.
I still dream of being Hugh Hefner's other girlfriend but I tell him I can't go to a fashion shoot because I have to study for the bar (I swear, this was a real dream).
I know the Bar is important and I still am giving it everything I have. But I'm not going to let whether I pass the bar or not define who I am or my self worth. And neither should you.
I am still stressed out at times. But I am not going to freak out because it is a test. Not my little brother's life.
Usually I try to refrain from sharing "intimate" feelings and things from the whole internet community. But I want you to know that YOU can DO IT! Or if not, THAT's OKAY!
Cheesy I know. But hopefully encouraging as well.